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Discovery of the New World
Discovery of the New World
In this section:
Premise
Hearing voices
Stereoscopies
My mental stereoscopy
Focus or concentrate
At the origins of schizophrenia
The mirror of the forbidden forest
Fish in the water
The wind is blowing outside
Communication of concepts
Perception of communications from the afterlife
A hallucination
Cognitive distortions
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Premise
I suppose that the type of genes and certain predispositions a person has can be among other things, a cause of mental illness, however a trigger and a symptom are something different. I suppose that stress and cannabis consumption can be, among other things, triggers of mental illness, however the type of genes and certain predispositions a person has would be, among other things, a cause and not a trigger or symptom. I suppose that hallucinations, along with lack of motivation and isolation can be symptoms of mental illness. What about hearing a ghost talk to you… Cause, trigger or symptom?
More than 25 years after my diagnosis, I firmly believe that it is possible to believe that one can be a person with schizophrenia while also believing that in addition to being symptoms of this disease, communication with the beyond and psychic interactions with spirits are a trigger and a cause. This is my case.
Hearing voices
I have been diagnosed for 25 years. So it's been about 25 years that have been living with symptoms of paranoid schizophrenia.
Hearing voices is nothing new to me. I still hear them.
My disease is controlled but, nevertheless, I still hear them.
I repeat, to those who want to know, that these voices are not like those of the people around me; They don't make my eardrums vibrate. They do not travel as a wave through space. Their appearance is more like an interlocutor in my thoughts.
Their message takes the form of a reflection that is formulated in sentences.
At times, these voices are much more present. I see them, without hearing them, I perceive them.
Their tone, intensity and subject matter are not uniform. They vary from moment to moment; sometimes intense and sometimes almost invisible or difficult to perceive.
Sometimes they seem light, positive, warm, encouraging and beneficial. Like the voice of an angel, they soothe me. They bring hope, they make me find confidence in myself.
However, sometimes they challenge me. Sometimes they are tricky and misleading. They can prevent sleep and push to act, make mistakes. Like an drill sergeant yelling at me, they are impossible to ignore, sometimes even imposing or intimidating.
Sometimes they play with my feelings, they shed light on bad memories, shameful moments of my present or my past, they force me to face fears, dilemmas, controversial ideas that dwell in the recesses of my secret garden. Sometimes they stage me, in my imagination, in sin, crime, perversion, abuse or violence. They can sometimes be dark.
They can manifest themselves as a violent gust of wind that distracts me, that prevents me from concentrating on what I am doing.
Sometimes the sky is overcast and the storm rages. Strong winds push the branches of the tree in all directions.
I think that what ensures that the trunk of the tree will not break, in addition to medical care, are several ingredients, several fortifying agents. As a person living with schizophrenia, what allowed me to face the wind was the feeling of belonging to a healthy and present entourage that supports me well in difficult times, and that gives me happiness when the wind subsides.
I needed tools and resources to help me get back on my feet, to help me regain confidence after the hurricane.
As someone with schizophrenia, my journey was comparable to having to learn on the fly to pilot a plane that is missing a wing and is already in the sky. No one can do this alone.
Stereoscopies
Ocular stereoscopy:
According to Wikipedia, “an autostereogram is a stereogram made up of a single image that gives the illusion of a three-dimensional (3D) scene from a two-dimensional (2D) image. In order to perceive shapes in 3D thanks to autostereograms, the brain must make an ocular effort of convergence and focus dissociated from accommodation. "
Mental stereoscopy:
When we think, we focus (or concentrate) the same way the eyes do to discover the 3D image in an autostereogram. An artist who draws inspiration from another artist to create or to perform (e.g. with a musical instrument), applies this principle in the same way to tune into his inspiration. That thing that our focus plugs into allowing us to be inspired by another being is its spirit.
When we want to sleep, in order to embark on the sleep track, allowing us to dream, our concentration must be adjusted in the same way.
Stereoscopy by external support:
Also according to Wikipedia, “a stereoscope is an optical device with eyepieces, prisms or mirrors, intended for the examination of pairs of stereoscopic views (commonly known as:“ in 3-D ”): drawing, photography, video, images of synthesis."
Biochemical stereoscopy:
In short, a stereoscope allows you to see a kind of three-dimensional image. Among other drugs, cannabis acts like a stereoscope. It is a tool that is not part of our body, which allows us to focus and connect to a source. This source is as real as the image under a stereoscope. It is not the figment of our imagination but quite the opposite; our imagination is the fruit of this source.
Stevie Ray Vaughan’s Stereoscopy:
In the Tribute to Stevie Ray Vaughan video (1996), the guitar virtuoso’s brother Jimmie Vaughan compared SRV’s connection with his inspiration to a radio station to which one just tunes into. He said: “As a musician that plays from the heart, he would just walk out on stage, pick up his guitar and within a couple of songs, he would just go to that place where he was receiving his inspiration and it would sort of just take care of itself.”
SRV would sometimes play as though he was possessed by Jimmy Hendrix himself.
My mental stereoscopy
When an astronomer examines the night sky, he sees things that I cannot see. He specialized in the analysis of the celestial world and his expertise allows him to understand things that ordinary people cannot understand. All the theories about the identification of stars, planets and galaxies, and our knowledge of our entire universe are the expertise of people who have focused on something other than planet Earth.
For my part, I am interested in everything that I perceive through the 6th sense. This domain, I call it the psychospititual world. I sit for several hours a day, often even several days a week, analyzing everything that passes through my thoughts and emotions. I try to decipher what constitutes the perceptible by something other than the first 5 senses. Since my epiphany in 1997, I have been striving to create a bridge between the beings of my spiritual surroundings and the people around me.
For some reason the spirits around me have chosen to manifest themselves to me. This event restructured my way of interpreting or decoding the psychospiritual realities that surround me. Here is a pictorial explanation that would allow me to communicate to you how this restructuring is defined:
Before the first manifestation I perceived my psychospiritual surroundings in two dimensions (like a drawing or a photograph). My psychoses allowed me to discern elements that stand out and move on a fixed background. I do not always perceive things in stereoscopy, but these occasions, although infrequent, allowed me to maintain my interpretation in normal times according to this mode of perception.
When I experience a spiritual manifestation, communications from my spiritual surroundings penetrate my thoughts whereas normally they are only discernible and only when I analyze them.
Monoscopic perception: The absence of a psychospiritual manifestation in the history of my life before 1997 did not allow me to notice the presence of spirits in my psychospiritual universe.
Perception of a spiritual manifestation: The penetration of a stimulus into my psychospiritual universe from a spirit allows me to see signs of life in my psychospiritual universe.
Stereoscopic perception: Following the manifestation, this perception allows me to retain a better ability to distinguish the influence of a spirit on me from my own psychic creations.
Thanks to stereoscopic perception, I decode in a different way the same signals to which all normal people are exposed. My psychospiritual bubble contains more or less the same components as the people around me, however due to stereoscopic perception, I sort these components differently.
Focus or Concentrate
A 3-year-old is sitting in the family living room in front of the TV and watching his favorite show. His father tells him to come and eat, but the child remains glued to the screen. His father repeats the order to him, but nothing to do; the child does not flinch a bit. He is not deaf, but rather he is captivated by the concept on which he is fixated.
A man sleeps soundly in his bed. His wife calls out to him but he remains motionless, his eyes closed. His wife repeats her husband's name, but nothing can be done; the man does not flinch an inch. He is not dead, but rather he is captivated by the concept he is fixated on.
Just like the television that stimulates the child, it is not silence that captivates the man but rather a stimulus coming from his 6th sense. The people around the sleeping man do not perceive what he perceives, but that does not mean that the psychic stimulus to which the sleeper is subject is non-existent. On the contrary, it has enough power to capture the full attention of a man who would not dare to ignore his wife.
When we wish to sleep, in addition to preparing ourselves by burning energy to get tired, there is an exercise that must be done to fall asleep. Just as our eyes gradually and automatically cross, as if by an unconscious reflex, to focus on an object and see it, our psychic eyes (our concentration) must coordinate and focus on a reality. This reality is like one star among many in our night sky. It is very difficult to grasp, but when we enter its atmosphere, we rush into a rich and wonderful world, the land of dreams.
We can cross our eyes to focus on an object in front of us. In the same way, we can focus on a concept, in our thoughts, commit to collaborating with an ideology or devote ourselves to a faith. So eyes are focused on an object, ideas on a concept, faith on an ideology and our inspiration on a spirit.
In the Bible chapter, Numbers 20:9, to punish the people of Israel who did not cooperate with his will, God sent serpents. Among those who were bitten, those who kept their eyes focused on Moses's brazen serpent were saved from certain death. The obedient stared at the serpent and they maintained their faith in a virtuous spirit. This ensured their survival.
Stevie Ray Vaughan was plugging into a star to harvest his inspiration. His psychic eyes were on Jimmy Hendrix. As a result, his work bore witness to this.
For my part, at my first psychosis, I connected to a source, just like the people of Israel did, just like Stevie Ray Vaughan did.
At the origins of schizophrenia
When we enter some data in a primary section of a computer database, sometimes this data can only be changed in these primary sections. It may appear on secondary sections, in order to display various groups of data, however, when we try to delete the data from the secondary sections, we find that the system does not allow it.
Trying to delete schizophrenia with antipsychotics, in my opinion, may be like trying to delete data from a secondary section in a patient’s system. It would be like trying to stop or slow down the progression of the illness by forcing the needles of a clock to a halt rather than removing the battery.
I believe that we all hear the “voices”, only not everyone recognizes them as voices. They are confused with one’s own thoughts. During more psychotic periods, the patient can distinguish them, while those around can’t understand what he is going through.
The mirror of the forbidden forest
Life tells us about a forbidden forest. It also tells us about a mirror that stands in this forest.
One day, while I was walking in this forest, I found this famous mirror. It extended to both sides of the forest. From where I was, I couldn't see the extremities. In the mirror, I saw what I thought was my reflection.
When walking along the mirror a few kilometers, I found an access that gave behind the mirror. I realized at that moment, when I crossed this access, that this reflection of myself was, in fact, not what I believed. I found that this mirror was not a mirror but a simple window. On the other side, I got acquainted with what I once thought was my own reflection.
Back home, I talked about my discovery and they didn't believe me; I was hallucinating and delirious.
People continue to believe that this glass is actually just a mirror.
Fish in the water
I do communicate with spirits. I communicate with ghosts. I communicate with demons and angels. I communicate with my invisible deceased ancestors. Does that make me a privileged, lucky, blessed, gifted or special person?
I believe that all people constantly communicate with spirits throughout the day, whether they realize it or not. Those who doubt this, I would say, are like fish born and raised at the bottom of an aquarium. They do not notice this natural feature that completely fills their environment. They cannot identify it because they have not explored to the surface and they base their understanding of what their environment is made of strictly by the use of their eyes.
They swim in it but remain unaware of its existence.
The wind is blowing outside
The wind is blowing outside. Sometimes it blows hard and I have to hold the door because it gets carried away. The wind outside is the voices I hear as well as the external elements that influence me. The door is what separates me and protects me from the weather. I have to keep it closed or the wind will enter my house and destroy everything in its path. In my case, the wind often blows a little too strong. I need help and the professionals are there, available and able to help me. I must trust the psychiatrist's care plan because it helps me keep the door closed.
Communication of concepts
In the world of the living, people communicate in particular through the use of sounds (speech) and, in general, the understanding of the messages emitted depends on the proper functioning of the transmitting tools (vocal cords, mouth, etc.), the receiving tools (the ears and the brain) and an atmosphere that allows sound to be transmitted (waves in space). When an anglophone says a word, it will be understood by the people who hear it if they understand his language. Otherwise, these listeners will not be able to understand but they will certainly hear a sound if their receiver tools allow it.
When a spirit speaks to us, the laws of nature that apply are different; sounds are not transported through space in the form of waves, using the particles that fill it. Communication originates from a concept that is transmitted telepathically. We manage to perceive without hearing. A spirit that speaks to us, saying the word that, for him, represents a given concept, will be understood, but in the language of the interpreter. For example, when a spirit says hello to a hispanophone, the latter will not be able to read the concept in English and will therefore understand "Holà!" rather than "Hello!".
When we sleep, our dreams can be conceived by a spirit around us, who whispers a story in our ears. In order to understand the dream, we must not take everything we perceive literally. For example, if our dream is about a childhood friend, our interpretation engine may choose the wrong image and show us the face of a childhood friend that does not match the one that this narrator spirit was talking about.
The perception of communications from the afterlife
Sometimes when you're daydreaming, you'll come to realize it. You will also find that, usually, even if you have just realized that you are daydreaming, that you remember where you were in your distraction, in your perception, the moment you try to take the reins in order to continue this reflection, the image or sound will dissipate, escape your control and cease.
In this sense, we do not have control over what we dream.
When we have a song in our head, it does not mean that this song is located in our head. In space, this song is not necessarily in a place nearby. In this sense, the things we imagine are not present, geographically speaking, in a physical place. When we dream, when we are daydreaming, when we have a song "in our head", we are not subject to a creation of our brain. In my opinion, all these things that we automatically attribute to the functioning of our brain actually have a metaphysical origin; They dwell and live in the fourth dimension.
This fourth dimension is "the place" where our ancestors are.
As someone with schizophrenia, I hear voices. I believe that people like me who say they hear voices are subject to, not hallucinations, but rather the perception of communications from the afterlife.
A hallucination
When these two images are superimposed, there are points where they intersect. These intersections are the common points between the two images. If we are not aware of these two images, but we clearly see the points of intersection, our “interpretation engine” will determine which of these two images we will see. This can happen when we look at a shag carpet; our interpretation engine will reveal an image in the carpet!
It is the same phenomenon that occurs when we hear only a few words scattered throughout a song whose lyrics we do not hear well; the initial message will probably not get through and the interpretation engine will suggest a new message that is not the author's intention.
Looking at his crystal ball, a medium will connect the points he identifies, not in the crystal ball itself but rather in his cognitive perceptions. The crystal ball will only serve as a constant visual aid that will not interfere with the psychic perception the medium will receive.
When any musician, painter or artist consumes a psychedelic drug, looking into his "crystal ball" (or any visual aid that will not interfere with his perception in his psychic world), the psychic world of this artist will inspire him to create his work, a work that will testify to the state of his psyche. Since we are all, whether we know it or not, subject to communications from our spiritual surroundings, the influence of a spirit who speaks to us will manifest itself in our creativity.
On video, a comical musical track would make a walking alligator look funny. The same walking alligator would look scary if a more dramatic track was playing in the background of the video. With the same mechanism, a person that is looking at a scene will interpret it differently depending on his state of mind. If he is conditioned by a prolonged exposure to aggressivity or threats towards him, he may be troubled and defensive even when it’s not required or called for. If the person is conditioned to peace, he may have a more peaceful interpretation of things from his environment or entourage.
When the Grinch points out that his nuts are green and salty, this could be interpreted differently depending on whether or not he is showing some pistachio nuts in his hands. An innocent child may not catch the more vulgar interpretation if he has been conditioned differently in comparison to an adult.
The Rorschach test in which our interpretation of an inkblot reveals the state of our psychic world, operates by these same laws of nature.
A hallucination is when one perceives a message from beyond that is connected by common points of intersection with a physically existing reality.
People like me are possibly subject to false beliefs resulting from perceptions coming from our spiritual entourage who speaks to us. I thus suggest that there are spirits around us who mislead us.
This factor weighs considerably as a cause of cognitive distortions.
Cognitive Distortions
My type of schizophrenia involves a lot of misunderstanding as paranoia catalyzes errors of interpretation. Many years ago, a therapist spoke to me about this thing called cognitive distortions and, as her recommendations helped me a lot, I would like to share some of these with you. I will also add some suggestions of tricks I picked up with my years of experience with this.
An example of a cognitive distortion that happens to me a lot is mainly just misunderstanding another person. You walk out of your house to pick up the mail and your neighbor seems to be ignoring you and avoiding eye contact. You might think they are angry at you and your mind starts racing, connecting dots the wrong way. This could be a cognitive distortion, and this could, in time, escalate.
What was recommended for this type of interpretation is to seek confirmation, to validate. You can simply and cordially go talk to your neighbor and ask if your interpretation is accurate or inaccurate.
If this person doesn’t know your diagnosis and you think you can trust them, you can simply let them know or just say you have hormonal health issues, and this will make the misunderstanding go away, and the neighbor may appreciate your confiding with them on such a personal issue, it might even promote your relationship. They will understand you more and it might prevent further misunderstandings of this type. This is a way to put water on a flame that could easily flare up.
I also suggest you talk about any of these situations with your healthcare providers. Your meds might need some tweaking.
I also recommend you never undertake clarifying such misunderstandings by text message. When communicating about such important issues, I believe it’s best to be able to also see for yourself the other person’s body language. It could optimize understanding and resolving the issue.