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Beyond Schizophrenia
Beyond Schizophrenia
One day, a Spirit appeared and spoke to me:
"I see you struggle to choose your path in life.
Know this — the world holds many gifts for you.
Since you recognize me as the Spirit of Goodness, pledge to follow where I lead.
I will guide you into the depths of a faraway forest — dense, mysterious, and sadly little-known.
There you will uncover a wondrous land where you may build your new home.
If you place your trust in me, I will help you clear the thorns and chart the road to this hidden world."
Now, after a long and perilous journey, the seasons have turned. I have traced the path to my new world and I wait with eager heart
to welcome those from my native land who wish to see its treasures, to walk its untrodden ways, and perhaps to settle here — to join me in clearing, shaping, and building, until one day, new civilizations rise from this soil.
The Window
As I consumed the banned molecule, I looked through the window. Like a pair of glasses, this molecule allowed me to see the living move behind the glass. I was astounded by this. This astounding stunned me. Some speak of hallucinations and I speak of a revelation.
I can always see the frame of that window very clearly; I know very well where to find it. The living that comes alive beyond, however, is not as clearly visible but I do not think so... I know there is life beyond that.
The prescribed molecule turns the window into a porthole and allows me to take an interest in the things of the waking world; the world of the "living" not deceased. It allows me to ensure my profitability.
Thanks to the prescribed care, I am less distracted by this window. Thanks to psychiatry I have recovered, I have a "normal" life.
The psychospiritual bubble
Awake, as in sleep, we are subject to and conditioned by influences from our environment and surroundings. These influences constitute what I call a psychospiritual bubble. This psychospiritual bubble is therefore defined as the set of knowledge, values and beliefs, both false and based in truth, which constitute the point of view of an individual and which have a direct influence on him at the moment when he must make a decision or make a choice.
There are as many psychospiritual bubbles as there are people, although these tend to resemble each other for members of the same social group or culture. A social culture therefore represents a psychospiritual bubble. It consists of a limited and subjective palette of ideologies and information that motivate the people who are part of it to behave in more or less similar ways and to advocate more or less similar ideologies. As soon as we find ourselves in such a bubble, the conditions of that bubble become what we consider normal.
"Good" and "evil" are often defined in terms of the psychospiritual bubble in which we find ourselves. Perfect objectivity depends on knowledge of all kinds of psychospiritual bubbles, and without exception. Science, being based on the scientific method that identifies evidence is supposed to be objective. However, an incomplete science represents a psychospiritual bubble.
Sensory Proportions Pie Chart
In this chart, the pie slices represent the sensitivity of the senses. The area where there is no slice represents perception via the 6th sense. When we are sober, here is more or less how the proportions of our perceptions are distributed:
Legend
1: sight
2: touch
3: smell
4: hearing
5: taste
6: 6th sense
Here is the pie of a person who is intoxicated or under the influence of certain drugs. This chart explains the analgesic and hallucinogenic effect:
This is what a blind man's "pie" looks like. A blind person is more perceptive by the other senses than people who have access to all their senses:
There are two factors to consider in determining perceptivity:
1- Sensitivity (an analgesic can reduce the sensitivity of the physical senses);
2- The intensity of stimuli directed through the senses.
A person who dreams while sleeping will experience the same kind of perception as a person under the influence of hallucinogens, however (as represented in this chart) the proportions of sensitivity remain as those of a sober person.
The intensity of stimuli directed at the 6th sense (represented by the 90% in the piechart) does not mean that it particularly increases. It is the intensity of the stimuli directed to the 5 physical senses that being reduced ensures a proportional increase in the value of perception via the 6th sense.
Obviously, the total intensity value of stimuli directed at all the senses varies over time. The "100%" indicates only the value of all the stimuli perceived at a given time. It does not mean that the senses all perceive at full capacity in the analyzed lapse of time.
The Soul
The soul of a living being consists of the following elements: The intention or the "expressive center", and the "perceptual center". Every being, whether living or spiritual, has its own soul. The intention originates from the soul and not from the biological brain. For this reason, we can continue to think and affect our environment and entourage after our death.
In any mediumistic trance our inability to coordinate or synchronize our gestures with another being confirms that our expressive centers, sources of the manifestation of our intentions, are separated. The subconscious is a term that refers to what is actually the influence of a spirit.
The perceptual center of an individual (the physical perceptual center combined with the psychospiritual perceptual center), since it is part of the soul, cannot be studied by the physical senses (except through theoretical documents that describe and explain it). It is invisible and not physically malleable. The brain is actually an intermediate biological tool between the soul and the physical world. Science that naturally prioritizes evidence and takes into account more palpable realities in its claims mistakenly infers that the perceptual center or expressive center is the brain.
On this basis, to attribute the psychological realities that a schizophrenic experiences simply to the state of his brain would be an incomplete and therefore false allegation. Psychiatrists who today specialize in understanding how the brain works mislead clients of their expertise when they claim that vision is produced by the brain.
The connotations of "pure creation of the brain" that they associate with the psychospiritual realities they have named "delirium", "hallucination", "subconscious" and so on, are inaccurate. These false connotations constitute a mistake and a false belief in their theory.
Psychiatry's justifications for indicating that I am delusional perfectly reflect its belief that an individual's psychological world is created in and by the brain. When there is an anomaly in the state of an individual's psychospiritual bubble, they disproportionately easily denounce a chemical imbalance in his brain. In fact, taking for granted that "normal" people behave in a healthy way, we consider a person "crazy" or "disoriented" when they are is simply "oriented differently."
The Brain: The Junction Between Body and Soul
If the fruits of a tree represent a person’s accomplishments, can a fruitless tree be revived simply by treating the junction between trunk and roots? Might something deeper — less visible — need tending?
Likewise, imagine two children on a seesaw: one grounded, the other suspended. To lift the child on the right, would adjusting only the pivot point truly help? Is the center of gravity where the transformation must begin?
So it is with the human brain — the mysterious junction between body and soul. In the case of schizophrenia, focusing solely on this pivot — the brain — may not be enough to restore balance. One cannot rehabilitate a person with schizophrenia simply by treating their brain.
I have come to see schizophrenia not just as an illness, but as a disruption in the deeper architecture of the self — something that cannot be edited or erased with chemical interventions alone. Treating it with antipsychotics may be like trying to delete data from a secondary section of a computer system, when the original entry lives in the primary layer — unchangeable from the surface.
Or like forcing the needles of a clock to stop — without ever removing the battery.
Beneath all this, I believe there is a universal experience of hearing "voices" — only some of us recognize them. For most, they blur into the constant hum of thought. But during moments of psychosis, a person may hear them distinctly. And in those moments, what is clear to the sufferer remains invisible — or incomprehensible — to those around them.
To heal, perhaps we must begin not at the surface of symptoms, but at the source of the signal — in the soil, not the fruit; in the root system, not the stem.
The perception of communications from the afterlife
Sometimes when you're daydreaming, you'll come to realize it. You will also find that, usually, even if you have just realized that you are daydreaming, that you remember where you were in your distraction, in your perception, the moment you try to take the reins in order to continue this reflection, the image or sound will dissipate, escape your control and cease.
In this sense, we do not have control over what we dream.
When we have a song in our head, it does not mean that this song is located in our head. In space, this song is not necessarily in a place nearby. In this sense, the things we imagine are not present, geographically speaking, in a physical place. When we dream, when we are daydreaming, when we have a song "in our head", we are not subject to a creation of our brain. In my opinion, all these things that we automatically attribute to the functioning of our brain actually have a metaphysical origin; They dwell and live in the fourth dimension.
This fourth dimension is "the place" where our ancestors are.
As someone with schizophrenia, I hear voices. I believe that people like me who say they hear voices are subject to, not hallucinations, but rather the perception of communications from the afterlife.
Stereoscopies
Ocular stereoscopy:
According to Wikipedia, “an autostereogram is a stereogram made up of a single image that gives the illusion of a three-dimensional (3D) scene from a two-dimensional (2D) image. In order to perceive shapes in 3D thanks to autostereograms, the brain must make an ocular effort of convergence and focus dissociated from accommodation. "
Mental stereoscopy:
When we think, we focus (or concentrate) the same way the eyes do to discover the 3D image in an autostereogram. An artist who draws inspiration from another artist to create or to perform (e.g. with a musical instrument), applies this principle in the same way to tune into his inspiration. That thing that our focus plugs into allowing us to be inspired by another being is its spirit.
When we want to sleep, in order to embark on the sleep track, allowing us to dream, our concentration must be adjusted in the same way.
Stereoscopy by external support:
Also according to Wikipedia, “a stereoscope is an optical device with eyepieces, prisms or mirrors, intended for the examination of pairs of stereoscopic views (commonly known as:“ in 3-D ”): drawing, photography, video, images of synthesis."
Biochemical stereoscopy:
In short, a stereoscope allows you to see a kind of three-dimensional image. Among other drugs, cannabis acts like a stereoscope. It is a tool that is not part of our body, which allows us to focus and connect to a source. This source is as real as the image under a stereoscope. It is not the figment of our imagination but quite the opposite; our imagination is the fruit of this source.
Stevie Ray Vaughan’s Stereoscopy:
In the Tribute to Stevie Ray Vaughan video (1996), the guitar virtuoso’s brother Jimmie Vaughan compared SRV’s connection with his inspiration to a radio station to which one just tunes into. He said: “As a musician that plays from the heart, he would just walk out on stage, pick up his guitar and within a couple of songs, he would just go to that place where he was receiving his inspiration and it would sort of just take care of itself.”
SRV would sometimes play as though he was possessed by Jimmy Hendrix himself.
My mental stereoscopy
When an astronomer examines the night sky, he sees things that I cannot see. He specialized in the analysis of the celestial world and his expertise allows him to understand things that ordinary people cannot understand. All the theories about the identification of stars, planets and galaxies, and our knowledge of our entire universe are the expertise of people who have focused on something other than planet Earth.
For my part, I am interested in everything that I perceive through the 6th sense. This domain, I call it the psychospititual world. I sit for several hours a day, often even several days a week, analyzing everything that passes through my thoughts and emotions. I try to decipher what constitutes the perceptible by something other than the first 5 senses. Since my epiphany in 1997, I have been striving to create a bridge between the beings of my spiritual surroundings and the people around me.
For some reason the spirits around me have chosen to manifest themselves to me. This event restructured my way of interpreting or decoding the psychospiritual realities that surround me. Here is a pictorial explanation that would allow me to communicate to you how this restructuring is defined:
Before the first manifestation I perceived my psychospiritual surroundings in two dimensions (like a drawing or a photograph). My psychoses allowed me to discern elements that stand out and move on a fixed background. I do not always perceive things in stereoscopy, but these occasions, although infrequent, allowed me to maintain my interpretation in normal times according to this mode of perception.
When I experience a spiritual manifestation, communications from my spiritual surroundings penetrate my thoughts whereas normally they are only discernible and only when I analyze them.
Monoscopic perception: The absence of a psychospiritual manifestation in the history of my life before 1997 did not allow me to notice the presence of spirits in my psychospiritual universe.
Perception of a spiritual manifestation: The penetration of a stimulus into my psychospiritual universe from a spirit allows me to see signs of life in my psychospiritual universe.
Stereoscopic perception: Following the manifestation, this perception allows me to retain a better ability to distinguish the influence of a spirit on me from my own psychic creations.
Thanks to stereoscopic perception, I decode in a different way the same signals to which all normal people are exposed. My psychospiritual bubble contains more or less the same components as the people around me, however due to stereoscopic perception, I sort these components differently.
Mediumistic trance
Psychiatry blames a lack of dopamine production in my brain for my so-called "delusions". In my case, this term "delusions" falsely claims that I am a victim of "false beliefs". Some recreational drugs freeze components of the brain that normally amplify psychospiritual perception. This anesthesia gives rise to the so-called "hallucination" (a term with a false connotation of "pure brain production") which in normal times constitutes a simple distraction (when one is "daydreaming") or a dream (when one sleeps). The folkloric term "vision" for this phenomenon implies a connotation of "communication with spirits".
The last name (vision) is actually the most accurate. Ironically, reality has, in the face of the progress of science, been drowned in the mythological connotation of folklore. Our dependence on evidence chains us to ignorance.
A psychospiritual manifestation can constitute in its subject a point of reference to adequately configure his interpretation of the psychospiritual world. Without this experience, the elements that make up the psychospiritual world are classified in a more or less confusing and random way. My experience allows me to distinguish that what a psychiatrist calls my subconscious is (at least in large part) the influence of a spirit and what a medium calls a "mediumistic trance" (the influence of a spirit on me) is directly associated with the following concepts:
-Intuition
-Instinct
-Inspiration
-Conscience (good or bad)
-Biological clock
-Vision: Daydreaming or an idea or a dream or a hallucination.
Through the spiritual manifestation in my life, I find that at least a large part of each of the preceding concepts consists of a contribution from one or more spirits in the subject's surroundings.
Telepathy
There is always at least one spirit existing in parallel with us—whether we are aware of it or not. Some may refer to this presence as a Guardian Angel. This spirit perceives our thoughts constantly, in all situations. When the spirit forms a thought while in alignment with us, we receive it as a kind of conceptual impression—what we often call intuition. The more time we spend reflecting on this impression, and the more complex it is, the more clearly we can decode and understand its meaning. This is how a spirit guides and communicates with us.
Spirits manifest themselves through our psyche. When a spirit speaks to us, the message may come in the form of a dream or a vision. Our physical ears do not register any sound; the message doesn't travel through space as a sound wave. Rather, it is a telepathic transmission—one that moves through thought alone.
Consider when we speak to someone on the phone whom we’ve never met. Our imagination might construct a mental image of them that turns out to be inaccurate when we meet in person. This illustrates a deeper truth: the mental image we create of someone speaking to us without physical presence is independent of their true identity.
If I witness person X display a new emotion or attitude I’ve never seen before, and later a spirit attempts to communicate that same emotion to me, it may use the memory of person X to represent it. Whether intentionally or not, the spirit may personify X through my emotions and imagination. If I’m unaware of the true source of this experience, I may mistakenly believe that I’m receiving a telepathic message from person X directly.
When we daydream and a scenario unfolds in our imagination without a clear cause, there is often a hidden message behind it. With careful analysis, this message can be uncovered. This is one way spirits communicate with us. Dreams, in fact, are this same kind of vision—but they occur while we sleep.
When young children play alone at a daycare, each immersed in their own world with an "imaginary friend," psychologists might describe it as a "collective monologue." But in truth, these children may be interacting with spirits present in their immediate spiritual environment.
Similarly, when person Y walks home from work and mumbles to himself, replaying a conversation with his boss, he is aware he's deep in thought—but the structured nature of this inner dialogue may actually be shaped by a spirit. This spirit embodies the emotional and psychological impression of the boss, forming a sort of "psychospiritual bubble" that influences Y’s state of mind.
There are times during daydreaming when this spirit-presence becomes noticeable. You might suddenly become aware that you are dreaming or reflecting. But the moment you try to take control of the scene, it often fades—images vanish, sounds disappear. This shows that we do not have full control over our dreams or visions.
When a song plays in our head, it doesn’t mean the song is stored physically in our brain. It’s not necessarily nearby in space either. In that sense, what we imagine doesn't exist in a specific geographical location. Whether we are dreaming,
daydreaming, or hearing a song internally, these are not mere brain functions, in my view. Rather, they originate from a metaphysical source—residing in what could be called the fourth dimension.
This fourth dimension is, I believe, where our ancestors dwell.
As someone who lives with schizophrenia, I hear voices. I don’t believe these are hallucinations, but instead perceive them as genuine communications from the spiritual realm—messages from beyond this physical life.
Communication of concepts
In the world of the living, people communicate in particular through the use of sounds (speech) and, in general, the understanding of the messages emitted depends on the proper functioning of the transmitting tools (vocal cords, mouth, etc.), the receiving tools (the ears and the brain) and an atmosphere that allows sound to be transmitted (waves in space). When an anglophone says a word, it will be understood by the people who hear it if they understand his language. Otherwise, these listeners will not be able to understand but they will certainly hear a sound if their receiver tools allow it.
When a spirit speaks to us, the laws of nature that apply are different; sounds are not transported through space in the form of waves, using the particles that fill it. Communication originates from a concept that is transmitted telepathically. We manage to perceive without hearing. A spirit that speaks to us, saying the word that, for him, represents a given concept, will be understood, but in the language of the interpreter. For example, when a spirit says hello to a hispanophone, the latter will not be able to read the concept in English and will therefore understand "Holà!" rather than "Hello!".
When we sleep, our dreams can be conceived by a spirit around us, who whispers a story in our ears. In order to understand the dream, we must not take everything we perceive literally. For example, if our dream is about a childhood friend, our interpretation engine may choose the wrong image and show us the face of a childhood friend that does not match the one that this narrator spirit was talking about.
Focus or Concentrate
A 3-year-old is sitting in the family living room in front of the TV and watching his favorite show. His father tells him to come and eat, but the child remains glued to the screen. His father repeats the order to him, but nothing to do; the child does not flinch a bit. He is not deaf, but rather he is captivated by the concept on which he is fixated.
A man sleeps soundly in his bed. His wife calls out to him but he remains motionless, his eyes closed. His wife repeats her husband's name, but nothing can be done; the man does not flinch an inch. He is not dead, but rather he is captivated by the concept he is fixated on.
Just like the television that stimulates the child, it is not silence that captivates the man but rather a stimulus coming from his 6th sense. The people around the sleeping man do not perceive what he perceives, but that does not mean that the psychic stimulus to which the sleeper is subject is non-existent. On the contrary, it has enough power to capture the full attention of a man who would not dare to ignore his wife.
When we wish to sleep, in addition to preparing ourselves by burning energy to get tired, there is an exercise that must be done to fall asleep. Just as our eyes gradually and automatically cross, as if by an unconscious reflex, to focus on an object and see it, our psychic eyes (our concentration) must coordinate and focus on a reality. This reality is like one star among many in our night sky. It is very difficult to grasp, but when we enter its atmosphere, we rush into a rich and wonderful world, the land of dreams.
We can cross our eyes to focus on an object in front of us. In the same way, we can focus on a concept, in our thoughts, commit to collaborating with an ideology or devote ourselves to a faith. So eyes are focused on an object, ideas on a concept, faith on an ideology and our inspiration on a spirit.
In the Bible chapter, Numbers 20:9, to punish the people of Israel who did not cooperate with his will, God sent serpents. Among those who were bitten, those who kept their eyes focused on Moses's brazen serpent were saved from certain death. The obedient stared at the serpent and they maintained their faith in a virtuous spirit. This ensured their survival.
Stevie Ray Vaughan was plugging into a star to harvest his inspiration. His psychic eyes were on Jimmy Hendrix. As a result, his work bore witness to this.
For my part, at my first psychosis, I connected to a source, just like the people of Israel did, just like Stevie Ray Vaughan did.
A hallucination
When these two images are superimposed, there are points where they intersect. These intersections are the common points between the two images. If we are not aware of these two images, but we clearly see the points of intersection, our “interpretation engine” will determine which of these two images we will see. This can happen when we look at a shag carpet; our interpretation engine will reveal an image in the carpet!
It is the same phenomenon that occurs when we hear only a few words scattered throughout a song whose lyrics we do not hear well; the initial message will probably not get through and the interpretation engine will suggest a new message that is not the author's intention.
Looking at his crystal ball, a medium will connect the points he identifies, not in the crystal ball itself but rather in his cognitive perceptions. The crystal ball will only serve as a constant visual aid that will not interfere with the psychic perception the medium will receive.
When any musician, painter or artist consumes a psychedelic drug, looking into his "crystal ball" (or any visual aid that will not interfere with his perception in his psychic world), the psychic world of this artist will inspire him to create his work, a work that will testify to the state of his psyche. Since we are all, whether we know it or not, subject to communications from our spiritual surroundings, the influence of a spirit who speaks to us will manifest itself in our creativity.
On video, a comical musical track would make a walking alligator look funny. The same walking alligator would look scary if a more dramatic track was playing in the background of the video. With the same mechanism, a person that is looking at a scene will interpret it differently depending on his state of mind. If he is conditioned by a prolonged exposure to aggressivity or threats towards him, he may be troubled and defensive even when it’s not required or called for. If the person is conditioned to peace, he may have a more peaceful interpretation of things from his environment or entourage.
When the Grinch points out that his nuts are green and salty, this could be interpreted differently depending on whether or not he is showing some pistachio nuts in his hands. An innocent child may not catch the more vulgar interpretation if he has been conditioned differently in comparison to an adult.
The Rorschach test in which our interpretation of an inkblot reveals the state of our psychic world, operates by these same laws of nature.
A hallucination is when one perceives a message from beyond that is connected by common points of intersection with a physically existing reality.
People like me are possibly subject to false beliefs resulting from perceptions coming from our spiritual entourage who speaks to us. I thus suggest that there are spirits around us who mislead us.
This factor weighs considerably as a cause of cognitive distortions.
Hearing Voices: A Trigger First and Foremost
I suppose that the type of genes and certain predispositions a person has can be among other things, a cause of mental illness, however a trigger and a symptom are something different. I suppose that stress and cannabis consumption can be, among other things, triggers of mental illness, however the type of genes and certain predispositions a person has would be, among other things, a cause and not a trigger or symptom. I suppose that hallucinations, along with lack of motivation and isolation can be symptoms of mental illness. What about hearing a ghost talk to you… Cause, trigger or symptom?
More than 25 years after my diagnosis, I firmly believe that it is possible to believe that one can be a person with schizophrenia while also believing that in addition to being symptoms of this disease, communication with the beyond and psychic interactions with spirits are a trigger and a cause. This is my case.
I Hear Voices
I have been diagnosed for 25 years. So it's been about 25 years that have been living with symptoms of paranoid schizophrenia.
Hearing voices is nothing new to me. I still hear them.
My disease is controlled but, nevertheless, I still hear them.
I repeat, to those who want to know, that these voices are not like those of the people around me; They don't make my eardrums vibrate. They do not travel as a wave through space. Their appearance is more like an interlocutor in my thoughts.
Their message takes the form of a reflection that is formulated in sentences.
At times, these voices are much more present. I see them, without hearing them, I perceive them.
Their tone, intensity and subject matter are not uniform. They vary from moment to moment; sometimes intense and sometimes almost invisible or difficult to perceive.
Sometimes they seem light, positive, warm, encouraging and beneficial. Like the voice of an angel, they soothe me. They bring hope, they make me find confidence in myself.
However, sometimes they challenge me. Sometimes they are tricky and misleading. They can prevent sleep and push to act, make mistakes. Like an drill sergeant yelling at me, they are impossible to ignore, sometimes even imposing or intimidating.
Sometimes they play with my feelings, they shed light on bad memories, shameful moments of my present or my past, they force me to face fears, dilemmas, controversial ideas that dwell in the recesses of my secret garden. Sometimes they stage me, in my imagination, in sin, crime, perversion, abuse or violence. They can sometimes be dark.
They can manifest themselves as a violent gust of wind that distracts me, that prevents me from concentrating on what I am doing.
Sometimes the sky is overcast and the storm rages. Strong winds push the branches of the tree in all directions.
I think that what ensures that the trunk of the tree will not break, in addition to medical care, are several ingredients, several fortifying agents. As a person living with schizophrenia, what allowed me to face the wind was the feeling of belonging to a healthy and present entourage that supports me well in difficult times, and that gives me happiness when the wind subsides.
I needed tools and resources to help me get back on my feet, to help me regain confidence after the hurricane.
As someone with schizophrenia, my journey was comparable to having to learn on the fly to pilot a plane that is missing a wing and is already in the sky. No one can do this alone.
The wind is blowing outside
The wind is blowing outside. Sometimes it blows hard and I have to hold the door because it gets carried away. The wind outside is the voices I hear as well as the external elements that influence me. The door is what separates me and protects me from the weather. I have to keep it closed or the wind will enter my house and destroy everything in its path. In my case, the wind often blows a little too strong. I need help and the professionals are there, available and able to help me. I must trust the psychiatrist's care plan because it helps me keep the door closed.
Cognitive Distortions
My type of schizophrenia involves a lot of misunderstanding as paranoia catalyzes errors of interpretation. Many years ago, a therapist spoke to me about this thing called cognitive distortions and, as her recommendations helped me a lot, I would like to share some of these with you. I will also add some suggestions of tricks I picked up with my years of experience with this.
An example of a cognitive distortion that happens to me a lot is mainly just misunderstanding another person. You walk out of your house to pick up the mail and your neighbor seems to be ignoring you and avoiding eye contact. You might think they are angry at you and your mind starts racing, connecting dots the wrong way. This could be a cognitive distortion, and this could, in time, escalate.
What was recommended for this type of interpretation is to seek confirmation, to validate. You can simply and cordially go talk to your neighbor and ask if your interpretation is accurate or inaccurate.
If this person doesn’t know your diagnosis and you think you can trust them, you can simply let them know or just say you have hormonal health issues, and this will make the misunderstanding go away, and the neighbor may appreciate your confiding with them on such a personal issue, it might even promote your relationship. They will understand you more and it might prevent further misunderstandings of this type. This is a way to put water on a flame that could easily flare up.
I also suggest you talk about any of these situations with your healthcare providers. Your meds might need some tweaking.
I also recommend you never undertake clarifying such misunderstandings by text message. When communicating about such important issues, I believe it’s best to be able to also see for yourself the other person’s body language. It could optimize understanding and resolving the issue.
The mirror of the forbidden forest
Life tells us about a forbidden forest. It also tells us about a mirror that stands in this forest.
One day, while I was walking in this forest, I found this famous mirror. It extended to both sides of the forest. From where I was, I couldn't see the extremities. In the mirror, I saw what I thought was my reflection.
When walking along the mirror a few kilometers, I found an access that gave behind the mirror. I realized at that moment, when I crossed this access, that this reflection of myself was, in fact, not what I believed. I found that this mirror was not a mirror but a simple window. On the other side, I got acquainted with what I once thought was my own reflection.
Back home, I talked about my discovery and they didn't believe me; I was hallucinating and delirious.
People continue to believe that this glass is actually just a mirror.